a life once lost - almost perfect but i failed lyrics

what else do i need to do? what else can i say? sorry? i have trained myself to love you. but you no longer look at me. why? what have i done to you? i tried so hard to be perfect. but you still throw me aside. i wish i was the symbol of p-ssion. the p-ssion that fills yours eyes. but i was always second in your heart.