a b c d e f g h i j k l m n o p q r s t u v w x y z 0 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 #

ayaan - poindexter lyrics

[verse 1]
as a kid i wanted to grow up so i could be myself
i shoulda said this as a kid for a lack of better dreams to tell
but as a kid i’d answer well, though i’d never believe myself
like “do i need to be something?”, cause all i really need’s myself
me, myself and i, yeah, we’re prolly gonna need some friends
and i’m ready to be a friend to anyone who need’s a friend
that was a disaster, man
kids think i’m weird as heck
and it irks me to no extent; i’m quirky, b+tch
please learn which end, is up
cause this is not debatable;
inflatable head, that’s purely in+deflatable
a cranial mess; cause i have problems being assertive
so when all these kids look at me and smirk, everything inside just turns sulphuric!
so i go and snapchat my friend, delirious
a picture of an m+16; i think i broke our steak for this
like, “i meant when i said imma shoot up the school, demetrius!
i told you that i’m f+cked up and i’m f+cked up on the other side of g+nius!”

[chorus]
poindexter, poindexter;
a poignant little boy left the
conjoined twins in a small shelter
with no heads, and their groins tethered
remember, remember
the fifth of november, when i left em dismembered
like a blender propellor (ahhh!)
[verse 2]
what the f+ck, man
that was really fun, man
why the f+ck you gotta judge, man
i’m so f+cking done, man
i f+cking give up, man
where the f+ck the drugs at?
i’m so f+cking f+cked that i f+cking look like a f+cking dustpan
when i’m f+cked up, man
i f+cking go, “f+ck this, f+ck that!”
yeah

[verse 3]
you prolly thought i’m playing games
but i’m here with a vengeance, b+tch, i’m stayin til the anger fades
though i try not to f+ck myself up too bad like i’m sp+cing drinks
it’s like my life’s a roll+call, man; the time i spend on taking names
to think you even matter to me
you seem sadder to me
talk to him, to talk to her; it’s ladders to me
goin down the same rabbit+hole, think how alice would feel
i just watch you moles furrow and think how mad the hatter could be
comfortably from the ins of my house
i sit writing people right off
and my god this list is quite long
d+mn, could it be that it’s my fault?
f+ck it, like i’d like to find out
i stay put inside my hideout
that i look at like some kinda high+ground…!
[verse 4]
i told you i was out for blood
a verse for you, a verse for him
demonic with the motor+mouth;
i skrrt on you, i skrrt on him
i meant when i said it: “i’ll come for all of you!”
so yall can suck my d+ck;
i’ll cum for all of — wait
i was just a boy of twelve
coping with my mental and it’s boistered health
repressing all these issues, saw no point to dwell
my best friend told me he’d stay by my side; but he always left
he wanted to be popular, guess my existence stopped it then
did nothing to fit in, developed a b+tchin’ voice inside my head
it told me fill the sink and hold my head in til i’m dead
wow it sounds as stupid now, as un+stupid as it sounded then: “the kid who figured he could drown himself”

[verse 5]
mama said my life is “novel+worthy”
nothing’s worse than novels
i was ten and i guess peaked early
where’d it all go downhill?
it wasn’t the cig addiction, surely
or the countless bottles
just some people all around me, yearly
i was tryna model
it all went spirallin’ out of proportion
my grades started falling much lower than normal
but i was becoming what i would transform to
the kids wouldn’t laugh; i’d be someone to talk to
and all the things my attention it brought to
were all the things that i found i was lost to
the kids, they can laugh at whatever they want to
i’m king of my world and i’m so glad i’m not you!
[outro]
that’ what i’ve been trying to say man
poindexter
ahh, f+ck it

- ayaan lyrics

Random Lyrics

HOT LYRICS