dm dorkuro - still here (harsh sun version) lyrics
for years
i ran from my mistakes
their piercing eyes
are something i can’t ever seem to flee
if i break
the wicked show their face
persuaded by
the deep, grotesque disgust of what they see
growing weaker every day
feeling heart and soul decay
if i’m not alone, then why am i afraid?
if i’m suffering inside
do i rest ’til it subsides
do i keep it to myself and disappear
the sorrow shows
and now it knows
that i’m still here
shut up
i’m done with hearing you
this is all you do
complain and b+tch and whine about yourself (this is not your businеss)
stop talking
don’t you dare say any more
just look at you
the harsh advicе of those who love you rots within this h+ll
(the harsh advice i’m given rots within this h+ll)
growing spineless day by day
watching as your mind decays
you say that you’ll keep moving on, but you’re afraid
(how can i move on if you won’t go away)
i’m the pain within your head
and without me, you’d be dead
(even with you, i would be dead)
i’m the reason why you’ll never disappear
(you’re the reason why i want to disappear)
don’t walk away
you’re who’s to blame
if i’m still here
was this all that you thought it could be
years of mending, but not much to see
aren’t you scared that you can’t feel a thing
god, your empty gaze is sickening
you can try to reject it
but it builds up and eats you inside
you should learn to respect it
this hostility is unjustified
so just try and correct it
but my contempt for you will not be denied
just think, for once
why else would you be acting this way
we are the many faces you have betrayed
you’ll never keep us out for long
if inner peace is what you find
give us your spirit
we’ll tear it out of you and make the guilt unwind
you’ll never make the shouting stop
or numb the stigma from your mind
prepare yourself for what’s to come
see all the damage you’ve left behind
embrace your d+mned incompetence or die
have you noticed that i’ve tried
coping with the sins that hide
have you forgotten that i’ve done this all before
(let your problems out, or you’ll never endure)
every time you come and go
i get weaker as you grow
(see the childish tears that you show)
even if i’m safe for now, you’ll stoke the fear
(you just want someone to blame for what you fear)
you’ll push my lunacy to something more severe
(soon, you will embrace the truth that brought you here)
the shattered mind
(you’re a waste of a life worth living)
scattered and swirled
(nothing more than a faded scream)
says “i am fine”
(this conclusion you make is unforgiving)
but to the world
(hide in the loss of your self+esteem and burn)
i’m dead inside
and terrified
that i’m still here
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