ej laflare - .terminal 1 lyrics
{intro}
art imitates life
yeah
{verse}
there’s no looking back
bags packed, that’s that
i can feel my stomach dropping like the nasdaq
look at this ass+hat, leaving everything behind
and going all by myself?
i must be out my mind
airport lights look much brighter at nine at night
so imagine how they’re looking from the pilot’s height
my first time on my own, i’m gonna like it right? ha
walking in slow motion
thank god the bar is open
knocking back these jameson’s until i feel no emotion
i don’t know what i’m doing
but i know where i’m going
i just hope i don’t get stopped for having too much lotion
i’m tryna get away from these bruises all up my arms and on my wrists
from snapping myself with these rubber bands when i get p+ssed
now what the f+ck could make me angry?
i could write a list
deep problems within my family that won’t be fixed
and now i wonder if
i leave this sh+thole without coming back, will i be missed?
that’s what i’m thinking as i go to take another sip
to erase all this anxiety and nervousness
is it worth the risk?
what am i leaving behind?
a lot of stress
a lot of anger
a lot of mess
ready to curse the f+cking world until i’m out of breath
and leaving scars on both my arms so i know how it felt
real sh+t
there’s no looking back, now i’m really leaving home
going to a f+cking different state to get some time alone
i need to leave this place
for a couple days
before the place i rest my head becomes my f+cking grave
someday, these thoughts won’t be only talk
an empty sidewalk, outlined in only chalk
as of right now, that’s been my only thought
staring at that side of the road some of my homies crossed
sh+t
takeoff is in an hour
shot after shot of jameson, or i put it in sour
now i feel like a coward
overpowered with feelings of nooses though fans on ceilings
and throwing in all the towels
i need this, i’ve been breathing in all this pressure
daddy with all this yelling and mama with all these lectures
coming apart at the seams, like things will just never get better
one more grand gesture
no more feeling lesser
on my own endeavor
salty water fills my eyes
all these strangers looking at me
staring right through all these lies
and like a phoenix, this sh+t just set my off to rise
off what i thought was the ground to spread my wings and fly
but i fall with style
and die with a smile
and some rules may never bend
doesn’t matter how, the villain always dies at the end
{outro}
yeah
i deserve it
giving into my worst fears
wind rushes by my face
drying up the tears
smile
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