ivory falls - how you gonna feel when i die? lyrics

[intro: joaquin phoenix]
i haven’t been happy, one minute of my entire f+cking life

[verse]
how you gonna feel when i die? (die)
would you even f+ckin’ cry? (cry)
gun to my head, that’s my type (suicide)
but, i’m a od, i’m so high (so high)
wish i was a kite, flyin’ through the sky (sky)
but you lied, you didn’t ride
that’s why everyday i’m so fried (so fried)
and i wake up every mornin’ askin’, “why?” (why)
’cause i don’t wanna be alive