just jeffery - family affair lyrics
behind the scenes part 1
just jeffery
we all go through sh#t
this time imma tell my story
my mom went ghost again she’ll be back in an hour (she’ll be back)
my father left when he had the chance so it never mattered (no way)
my sister had anger she let her demons take control (take control)
the other one stayed silent so no one would really know (don’t say a thing)
my brothers were gone so i could never see the effect (not effected)
til one got 20 and the other somehow spiralled left (we felt neglected)
chris was gone too soon so he got to miss the hurt (rest in peace)
i guess he’d never get what none of us deserved
we closed our eyes to avoid the screams
but we realized they only got louder
we fought the ghosts insides our dreams
but still woke up to a disaster
not too aware of what happens after
i’m in need of control
it’s just too hard to say no
the world says stop and i go
it’s hereditary
im good at breaking most promises
and if i have to be honest
i have become very toxic
this sh#t ain’t ordinary
i’m not afraid of the war zone
i know by now where i belong
still don’t know what’s right or wrong
so nothing will scare me
i never trust in myself
but i’ll trust everyone else
i’m steady hurting myself
yet i’m stilli’m begging for help
i’m starting to trust in myself
f#ck trusting everyone else
i’m no longer hurting myself
so just don’t offer your help
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