lucidity - i'm sad lyrics
yeah
[verse 1]
people ask me what’s goin’ on
i don’t even know but it feels wrong
and the road ahead looks so long
but i gotta do it so i keep on
never gonna stop myself
i’ve beaten my demons and conquered a hell
i wanted to die and just pop all my pills
no-one on my side, don’t know how that feels
you say you relate
but imagine your soul with this weight
i’m so full of resentment and hate
it’s so deep that i couldn’t escape
this has become who i am
so just get the f-ck out my way
don’t need you holdin’ my hand
don’t take me in when i’m stuck in the rain
i do deserve it, i’m cold and i’m bitter
started just fallin’ in love with the winter
we’re both in pain and i’m one that could fit her
don’t try to convince me, i won’t reconsider
stubborn, it’s dangerous, i’m self-aware
pain is contagious, but i don’t care
hidin’ my faces, things i don’t wear
goin’ through fazes, too much to bear
lyin’, i’m tired of teasin’ the truth
i’ve been dishonest, i’m lyin’ to you
standin’ in front of you, there is a thief
why can’t you see it, quit bein’ naive
[verse 2]
time to accept it, i’m evil inside
all that i touch it just shrivels and dies
nobody taught me what’s wrong from the right
that’s an excuse and i use it to hide
got all these gifts that i can’t seem to give
turnin’ to selfish and that’s how i live
can’t seem to shelf it, the monster i am
started up when you let go of my hand
why did you tell me you’d stick to the end
then you told me that we couldn’t be friends
bottled up feelings, yeah you got me tense
repeat a story, you wash and then rinse
now i’m avoidin’ familiar faces
don’t wanna hear about how i’ve been changin’
you think i’m weak, why don’t you just say it
i’m puttin’ up walls that are harder than pavement
climb over that, ima put up another
can’t even open up to my own brother
then there’s the fact that i’m fightin’ my mother
never been sayin’ it but i still love her
don’t make it easy, yeah that’s for sure
sometimes i wonder why i’m even here
burnin’ in jealously, drownin’ in tears
tied up in trouble and hung by despair
why am i sad, it’s always a factor
playin’ pretend, must be a good actor
either that or they just don’t wanna lend
hopefully it’ll work out in the end
sick of these games and playin’ pretend
goin’ insane cause i need a friend
my heart’s in a safe, no way to get in
hopefully it’ll work out in the end
i’m sad
[outro: winter aid]
let me sleep
i am tired of my grief
and i would like you
to love me, to love me, to love me
this is the night when these woods sigh
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