mayday hobby - a cure for devastation lyrics
[verse 1: mayday]
pull the trigger
go ahead and put me to ease
cure this devastation around my neck
begging for more orders
from those who turned their backs
on me while i was down
i never begged for any bread
i never hated on anyone
just because of their checks
i was allowed to sacrifice
and that’s all i did
to feed my family
we couldn’t even pay rent
i was a sinner in many ways
but i never let myself sink
in the same pool of tears
that my mother left for me
i never felt sorry for myself
but it’s hard when you don’t know yourself
trying to look through others
to find some satisfaction
to find a reason not to repaint
the canvas you were given
and sometimes my mind was my weapon
all my thoughts pouring on my sleeves
i promised myself that next time
there wouldn’t be any blood
that i wouldn’t give in to this disease
of hustling and proving
that i’m stronger than the riches
then i found myself in my reflection
watching diamonds and chains hang
from my neck that was caught up in dreams
visions that were starting to come clean
and i said no to the fame
i said no to putting pride next to my name
but being humble isn’t easy
when you’re trapped in the game
some have an advantage
some choose different paths
some call success the definition of being trapped
in money and more of it
they can never get enough
they just let it spill out of their pockets
they let it shine for the world
but then say it’s a curse
and we talk about money not being a real issue
but tell me how can you speak
for those who are begging on the streets?
and tragedy comes with any circ-mstance
you could be lighting up in your mansion
but still feel like you’re dead cause
[hook: vontulius the crown]
it ain’t easy
i don’t need n-body to speak for me
they say, just take it easy
they say it like they know
but i know that they don’t
it ain’t easy
i don’t need n-body to preach to me
they say, just take it easy
they say it like they know
but i know that they don’t
[verse 2: mayday]
pull the trigger
go ahead and take me back
to those nights of waking up
constant turning and worrying of
the situations that came
seemed like they would never end
i was reaching out for a light
but darkness kept creeping in
i had a soul that was empty
crawling for something to save it
i apologize to anyone who was forsaken
just know that i was in the position
of losing everything that i was winning
i was trapped in my bad habits
i quit the sh-t that kept me from
building a relationship with everyone
who cared so much and prayed
that i’d find the strength
to win all these battles
that seemed impossible at the time
i had to search so hard
to find who i really am
had to push past the adversities
that i thought were holding me back
but from the outside it seemed
like no hardships were discovered
that i had it easy, that i didn’t understand pain
but just cause the scars aren’t visible
doesn’t mean i’m free from the tragedies
i wish i could go back
so i’d ask mama if she’s proud of me
i wish i could have tried harder
but i wouldn’t change anything
cause everything i am
is all because of my mistakes
i rather find fault with myself
then blame it on anyone else
and i know i talk about my father
i can’t deny that he’s a factor
but every decision i made
i own up to it and try to maintain
who i really am, trying to keep sane
and everyone can speak about
things they don’t know
so i welcome them to a different world
one where their eyes can be guided
by fame and then be blinded cause
[hook: vontulius the crown]
it ain’t easy
i don’t need n-body to speak for me
they say, just take it easy
they say it like they know
but i know that they don’t
it ain’t easy
i don’t need n-body to preach to me
they say, just take it easy
they say it like they know
but i know that they don’t
[outro: vontulius the crown]
i know they don’t understand it
i know they wanna feel like they do
i know that they talk about it
like it’s just something they do
i know it’s the circ-mstances
but we always rise above them
i know it ain’t easy
i know it ain’t easy
i know they don’t understand it
i know they want to pretend like they do
i know they speak about tragedy
as if it’s just something they go through
i know it’s the situation
but we can always change it
i know it ain’t easy
i know it ain’t easy
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