noodlez.707 - sinner (remix) lyrics
[verse 1]
when i think i can rarely hear
so much is going on up there
all these voices screaming in my head make me wanna break down right here
i just wanna end it right there
but im venting so im gonna tell you about the things i hear
maybe even some of the things i think when im able to hear
when they scream its really me screaming at myself
some days i feel like im not myself
i was tought never to talk to strangers but im always trying to talk to myself
i feel like im already insane
suicide all up in my brain
dont wanna tell anybody cause i feel ashamed
but even the voices feel my pain
so i get lost, inside here, its my brain, but im still scared
got so many things inside here
creatures lurking so i take pills
why do they always tell me to off me
pot is the only thing that really calms me
tried prozac, zoloft, and xanax
i could go on and on the list is unstopping
most people are usually blind
turn there back when you say your fine
n-body notices when when you cry and whip your tears and come out with your red eyes
they never hear your conversations with the devil
but if they did they wouldn’t understand it
because if they knew how you felt inside you would be a monster and devil
300 million people with depression
most of the people dont ever except them
i dont understand why they lock us up to “help” us but all we need is love and acception
i have a little of each i ain’t gonna lie
but i still feel like im alone
i know i need help but its hard because im never going home
[chorus]
yea i done lost all my family members to the devil himself
but since then i’ve had no help
i’ve just been keeping my feelings to myself…..myself
i’ve just been keeping my feelings to myself…..to myself
i’ve just been keeping my feelings to myself…..myself
i’ve just been keeping my feelings to myself…..to myself
i’ve just been keeping my feelings to myself…..myself
i’ve just been keeping my feelings to myself…..to myself
[verse 2]
when i think about my past
i think about the things that i lack
when i think about the future it just turns all black
sometimes i wanna let go
cause i feel so alone
my family say they got me but when i need ’em the most they are no where close
my mom was the only one who stayed
my dad tries but gets carried away
and everybody else went astray
and i still can’t explain how im pained
cause its to hard
to explain
the pains deep
i can’t sleep
when i do i always see things
eyes open but i can’t move a thing
i see them moving all around me
i can still feel them poke me and stab me
re-live my past in dreams back in the truck flipping and spinning
i re-live other experiences in my bed
sometimes its hard to remember that its in my head
wake up the next morning with a headache and like i really never slept
i just miss the past way to much
back when my mom was off the drugs
when we had a house the family was together and the worst worry was what to do have fun
use a tarp for a slip-n-slide
or go play in the mud ’till its to cold for us
over thinking things way to much
now i dont get to see my sisters much
lost in this sh-t
to many voices saying do it
trying not to give in but the pressure i dont think that i can take it
[chorus]
yea i done lost all my family members to the devil himself
but since then i’ve had no help
i’ve just been keeping my feelings to myself…..myself
i’ve just been keeping my feelings to myself…..to myself
i’ve just been keeping my feelings to myself…..myself
i’ve just been keeping my feelings to myself…..to myself
i’ve just been keeping my feelings to myself…..myself
i’ve just been keeping my feelings to myself…..to myself
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