psychopathmahdi - gad lyrics
[1st verse]:
and it’s easy to see because this all about my freakin’ gad
but it’s hard to feel, now this sh+t brings me freakin’ adhd
and i don’t know what the heck is goin’ with me
why i even feel i’m losing my heartbeat??
man this sh+t is f+ckin’ real
and can’t appeal to my old deal
i wanna work and too i don’t
i wanna stand but i can’t
you can’t feel even if i zoomed my font
this sh+t is out of my hand and i can’t stand
you can’t understand
that my soul is all that they demand
feel my body like a plane with unmanned
man i even afraid to marriage and when i get my kids
gotta tell ’em that they missed the best uncle they can get
that uncle is my brothеr and it’s painful to write that
’cause he is in a placе so far for us but so close to the heart
i’m knockin’ my heart, i wanna restart
i wanna new part, please help me, god
please gimme mark, which i can start
’cause it’s f+ckin hard for my little heart
they whisperin’ me f+ck this mark
i’m weak and stuck between two powers
where the minute passes slower than one hour (what a power?)
i don’t know what to do, i’m tired of being a glue
kinda like doctor healin’ people hurt but can’t heal himself
like every time i want to stand, i do it by myself
but screw these pills screw the health screw the blood cells
[bridge]:
you don’t know anything about my gad
you don’t know what i f+ckin’ really feel
you were just gone when i want you with me
you left me dead bones, so leave the h+ll alone
[2nd verse]:
yeah leave me alone, i do need no help, i’m like a stone
i’m strong enough or lyin’ to myself that’s my bluff
this ill is so freakin’ tough, no word can describe, ain’t enough
i need a cuff from all this pain i got deep down because my love
i do need no drugs, i do need no escape
i’m waitin’ for my fate… no wait wait, ain’t i got my fate?
all this pain, all this shame, all this blue date!!
all this hate, that what i get and just relate to my fate
all this weight on my shoulders you can’t calculate
i gotta dark smile and dark face you can’t imagine
but can’t flatten in on my face, you got a passion?
i burn it every day, every day i bring i new shovel
it even dark more than the eye of my devil
the gad shows you the confuses of me, but ain’t really me
why i keep doubt, care, and afraid of everything around me
why do i care for the people who left me, why i even care if people left me?
why they leave me then say it’s because me, it’s mahdi
but screw you people, not because of me, ’cause i gave a lot
and you missed my shot, ask your god if you forgot
you want to judge me because your wrong and stupid spot
this what you just bought, but let me tell you, all you do is break my heart
[bridge]:
you don’t know anything about my gad
you don’t know what i f+ckin’ really feel
you were just gone when i want you with me
you left me dead bones, so leave the h+ll alone
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