soul whirling somewhere – there is no getting through lyrics

i only want to fall asleep. i want to wake and have all
the pain be gone. god, knock me out, and please change
everything while i sleep. i wish that i didn’t feel this
way. i just want to fall asleep. and if it can’t be with
you, then it might as well be permanent. god save me. god
give me. or just let me fall asleep.