xilence raps - apology to the kid i was lyrics
[verse 1]
look…
i been runnin’ from the mirror since the day i learned to lie
but you were standin’ in the doorway with that worry in your eyes
five years old, heart cold from the battles in the walls
tryna’ figure why the people you loved most would let you fall
and i’m sorry
sorry that i left you in the dark without a hand
sorry that i tried to numb the pain instead of takin’ a stand
you wanted somethin’ simple — just a voice to say you’re safe
but i grew into a person that kept lookin’ for escape
you ain’t deserve the chaos, the alleys, or the sirens
a childhood made of trauma, foster beds, and cold silence
you ain’t ask for any of this — i’m the one who built the sins
tryna’ make a home inside the hurt i found myself livin’ in
[hook]
little me…
i know you just wanted love, i know you did
every wrong turn i made — it echoed through the kid i was
if i could go back in time, i’d pull you off that broken path
hold you in my arms and say:
“you don’t gotta hurt to matter.”
[verse 2]
i used to blame you for the pieces that i couldn’t fix
but truth is — you were fightin’ storms no kid should ever mix
hospitals, probation, pills, the nights i cried alone…
you were only lookin’ for affection — i was lookin’ for a home
snoop said go back in time — i swear i tried
rewind the tape and see the fear behind your quiet little eyes
wish i could step inside the screen, tell you none of this was fate
tell you the world was wrong for makin’ you carry all that weight
but here i am — a product of the pain you never chose
a man shaped by the nights you trembled under broken windows
and even though i failed you, even though i lost my way
i’m here now, speakin’ truth — this the debt i gotta pay
[hook]
little me…
i know you just wanted love, i know you did
every wrong turn i made — it echoed through the kid i was
if i could go back in time, i’d pull you off that broken path
hold you in my arms and say:
“you don’t gotta hurt to matter.”
[outro]
so this is my apology — not to the world, just to you
no ego, no rage, nothin’ left but the truth
you were innocent, and i’m sorry for the ways i chased love wrong…
but your heartbeat made me strong
and even through the wreckage of the life that came to pass
just know…
everything i am is built from your courage in the glass
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