syqnys – hypatia rain lyrics
[chorus]
(breathe) they tell me all she needs is to breathe
all she (breathe) needs is a heartbeat and we can just leave
and (breathe) take our baby home
i almost start to believe
but then they (breathe) ask “can you fill out this death certificate please?”
whoa whoa (rain)
i hear the melody of rain on the window
(rain) i love to watch your hair swim in the wind blow
(rain) standing in the rain, i’m kissing your lips slow
(rain) i tell you i’ma hold you and i’m never gon’ let go. (rain)
[verse 1]
i gotta be honest, i don’t know if we’re ready
i mean, you have two kids already
and girl, we’re not ready for three
and when i say we, i mean me. especially me
i’m a kid myself. you keep lecturing’ and pestering’ me
remember when we pulled over to the side of the road
when i called my dad and then i cried after i had just told him
holding’ me in your arms. i cried, thinking’ whys he not scolding’ me
letting’ everything out i was trying’ to hold in
i think that’s about the time that i first was excited for her
excited for my baby’s birth
either then or the ultrasound
when i and you first seen that black and white image of her inside of you cursed
and then one day i was reading this book by carl sagan
when it comes to the part where he talks about the 4th century pagan
a mathematician philosopher maiden brave and brazen
the face of ignorance when it had its safest haven
her name was hypatia. the perfect name for our girl
the perfect name for the perfect girl in this great little world
then you know it’s time. you’ve done this twice
it’s labor for sure. they’re saying’ that you’re not ready, in two days we return
they hook you up to that heart monitor baby machine
but we can’t hear anything, this is crazy
it seems they can’t hear her little heart
we start making’ a scene. the doc says sorry for your loss
i hear the craziest scream. i hold you; console you
but everything i say will not bring our baby back
she’s gone forever in a daze and a dream. hurt, she poses
curtain closes, too much pain in the scene
but what you felt in that moment i couldn’t claim to be keen
this is what it sounds like when laughter dies
you look up at me and say she was supposed to have my eyes
right there on the hospital bed i collapsed and cried
hugging’ your stomach; loving’ what we had inside
i can’t begin to imagine what it was like for you
to have something you love more than life inside of you
united, you were tied to her. there were no tighter two
then right as you try to do what you must, she dies in you
(push) she’s still inside of you. just try to do this fast
(push) the pain will grow quieter as she moves into the past
(push) the silence death will bring is deafening we’re there at last
(push) i almost didn’t hold her. how stupid is that? how?
i almost didn’t hold my baby. but as a father i would’ve regretted it
especially after i had to watch her emerge from you
giving birth to our silent daughter
i try; i wanna just be your knight in shining armor
but this thing should say birth, not death, certificate
it’s crazy how one word can change your whole world. isn’t it?
there’s nothing i can say to take the pain away
but i know we’ll have another rainy day
[chorus](x2)
(breathe) they tell me all she needs is to breathe
all she (breathe) needs is a heartbeat and we can just leave
and (breathe) take our baby home
i almost start to believe
but then they (breathe) ask “can you fill out this death certificate please?”
whoa whoa (rain). i hear the melody of rain on the window
(rain) i love to watch your hair swim in the wind blow
(rain) standing in the rain, i’m kissing your lips slow
(rain) i tell you i’ma hold you and i’m never gon’ let go
(rain)
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